Carrie-Anne Ingrouille
Performer, Olivier Award Nominated Choreographer and Director
The Voice of Her Gremlin
“Are you sure you want to do that?”
It came from being bought up in a household where there wasn’t much expectation for success.
It’s like a sticky golden syrup head. It makes me feel like I don’t know my own mind or what to say.
In the next level of progression we are most likely going to encounter change and we fear whether the audience will accept that change.
Things that people say flippantly, like ‘this feels awkward’ make the Gremlin surface.
Certain amounts of creativity might happen in your own personal thoughts, but when you see it out in the field, we need to allow space for change. I previously struggled to ask for that space, but I calm my Gremlins when I do.
I’ve always had barriers of how to create.
I think it comes from having sometimes working in a way where I’m given a sequence block that I have to colour in. So then when I’m left to my own devices I suddenly feel out of control and as if I don’t know my own mind and I don’t know what I want to say.
restriction is sometimes better for me to create; because I have walls that I can bounce off of instead of being given a field to run through with no idea where I’m running to or why I’m making the decisions I’m making.
Trust is the remedy.